Beautiful realization

I will be THE BEST PERFORMER today. I will just make it happen. Aaj toh karke hi rahungi main..!!! Don't we say this quite often? Every time... every time something big or small has to be achieved we gratify ourselves by saying this. I do it too. It gives me positivity, strength and vigor to go achieve what I want. But a lot of times, few incidents contradict those theories you believe in; that are time tested and worse happens when those unbelievably new theories for you; are also supported by equally good tests. haha !!! CONFUSED??? Happens, even i was by observing what I did !!! Let me share with you...

I strongly believed in "you can make and break your own destiny", contradicting to a lot others who say "wahi hota hai jo hona hai". If we strongly visualize our dreams we will indeed achieve it is what my BELIEF is, which is real. It does happen. It has happened to me. Recently a dwarfish but thought provoking incident made me ponder over my strong belief. It actually tried to drift away, what is in my hands. I had a presentation for which I was not that well prepared but confident enough to speak right. Everything was going great, though we had prepared for the presentation in just a day's time our entire presentation flew smoothly until I stepped on the stage. I too presented well, grabbing everybody's attention; until my last minute was left to conclude, when a sudden arrival of non stop coughing which lasted for about 4 minutes attacked upon me but departed the same way as it came (It got Chhoomantar with a blink of an eye). Then when I spoke, I experienced my voice(which was absolutely normal few minutes back and after the incident) to sound like some ghost, a soft ghost who has lost its capacity to scare people. I could not regain my original voice for about 5 minutes. The best cold drink ever - Water could not help me at that moment. What was it that really occurred then? I could not even control my own Body. Nothing could stop or alter that bizarre happening there in front of 30 other students. Where did my " Everything is in my hands " disappear??? I was wondering. Was that really destined to mess up the Best Presentation of the day? OR may be not? (cause we still got that honor of the best presentation for the day). It remains obscure for me to deduce what really happened.

How confident we all are when we say I will surely be able to change this person into someone better or here in my case be the best speaker of the day (which I could achieve irrespective of that days coughing session, haha !!!); but is it all REALLY completely in our hands? I am skeptical about it now. I definitely can never stop thinking positive about situations and things but now I know along, I also have to be prepared for something unforeseen along with that. Miniscule incidents sometimes get you to think the way you would have never thought before. The thought about thinking the new way would really be destined !!! Who knows??? :O 

Its really unsettled for me, a mystery unsolved...!!! Hope someone comes up with a REAL solution to this someday soon.