Loss… Or is it, Victory!!!

So it’s about my friend again. Yes the same one. Well if you haven’t read my last blog, you won’t know who I am talking about. Now you get what to do first…: P

She called me. I thought it was yet another beautiful day for her. Every day is a new gift to be unwrapped for the ones in love. Well, I always felt this way, listening to her stories.

Today was different. She was quiet, disturbed, irritable and sad. She didn’t want to talk. Didn’t want to share. Didn’t want to express all her joys and feelings which usually overwhelmed. Off course feelings overwhelmed today too, but they were all dark and black filled with fear, guilt and doubt. Moreover she sounded abandoned, unheard and REJECTED.

I couldn’t really guess what the matter was, but I knew it was something to do with an important person in her life. Well after me, it was HIM who mattered the most to her. Or maybe, he held that first position by now. I didn’t want to know THE WHAT but THE WHY which was troubling her.  

She broke down. I couldn’t believe it was coming so soon for her. I didn’t know acceptance would cost her so much. I didn’t know her trust was really conditioned all this time. Well and I didn’t know her LUCKY DAY would come to her so soon. I wanted to tell her, nothing’s changed; but how could I? I wanted to tell her, stop crying; but I knew that was the right thing for her. She kept weeping and I kept thinking. She was broke and I was angry. She felt like she’s lost it all and I felt like I’ve gained everything back. Our minds contradicted but our hearts confirmed.

I was scared but I showed strength. She was always my solution seeker. Role reversal was difficult. I made the same mistake as HIM. I asked her WHY. WHY did she love him? She couldn’t answer, but my heart didn’t stop talking to my brain. It said… May be her love was about instant gratification or maybe she deserved some gratefulness to love him more each day. May be her love too was conditioned or maybe it was something beyond. Something unsaid, unheard and unexplained. After all, love is all about understanding. May be they couldn’t be thoughtful enough.

“Your past plays a role creating your present and your future.” She had once told me this. They knew all of it but how about applying and understanding each other when required. That’s what matters. Love is about consistency. May be she gave up easy and soon but may be; they both had to be consistent, not just her.

She couldn’t think enough and I couldn’t stop thinking. 

Was it a loss… or yet another VICTORY?